My Post Traumatic Growth Map
Recently, I’ve had a bunch of conversations talking about how much I value the depth of this stage of life.
I’m endlessly fascinated by the ways in which we spiral through the human experience. The ways in which, things keep coming back up and into our vortex, the ways in which things repeat but may have a slightly different flavor, the ways in which, with awareness, we can shift and repair and rebuild while also gaining wisdom of a life, where things do have a beginning a middle and an end.
The patterns and pulls of my life making sense in new ways, with more depth and clarity.
I’ve been able to pull a connecting line through memories of pain patterns and relational patterns that never made sense before and now click with resonance. As I gain these insights on things that I repeat or that repeat in my body, I feel empowered by these revelations.
I start to feel little pings of energy and sensation in my system, which is usually my internal sign that I’m on to some nugget of truth.
When this happens, I try to stay with the sensations, the expansions in real time, to see what flows.
I recently created a “ lineage of healing” map b/c now I’m at a point where these ALL FLOW TOGETHER. At this stage, they weave flawlessly in and out of my days as lifestyle. A lifestyle of growth and curiously and inquiry into what a “ healthy” life looks like for me, given all my parts. The wounded parts, the playful parts, the serious parts, the monastic parts, the sensual wild parts, I want them all here.
Yoga, Ayurveda, meditative & somatic practices, mind- body medicine tools and mystical explorations are lifestyle choices and daily rhythms. This is the Priestess Path I am walking and breathing into with no separation between these systems and how I show up in the world.
The call for the spiritual realm to blend seamlessly into the mundane is quite loud. I was the most sick and unwell in my life when I was not connected to spirit. When I was so lost and lonely flooded with emotions and not able to find a way out. In somatics, we say that dignity, belonging and safety are our birthright, for all humans. And here’s my map of finding my way to them.
Yoga taught me how find myself in a body, in real time. Yoga taught me how to move and breathe into healing. It gave me language and experience that met me, challenged me at every level and was my entry way into embodied transformation. It gave me a set of principles and ethics and standards for living that I tried on and lived into. Yoga is where I found dignity.
Ayurveda became the integrated path for me that began to influence, inspire and direct my yoga practice which turned into movement practices beyond names of shapes and poses. My life rhythms began to shift, I began to see the world. I found myself in the elements, the seasons the cycles. Ayurveda is where I found belonging.
Somatic Healing practices have led me into subtle realms of deep repair and rejuvenation. Attuning and orienting towards health and wholeness, feeling into differentiation as a boundary and clarity practice and unraveling the tightly wound patterns from threat response that no longer serve this life, this stage, this present time have been revolutionary and radical for my system and relationships. Somatics is where I found safety.
Where are you on the map of growth? What areas or patterns do you see repeating? Where might safety, belonging and dignity be a part of your daily intention?
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